Dork - why didn't you read your Bible first this morning??

The whole concept of Rev. 2:1-7 hit home the last few days. The last few days II feel as if I have lost my lampstand. That I was wondered away from that first "blush" of new love and forgot what it was that meant so much. Remaining faithful to the truth of God by focusing on Christ has become muted so that I feel lost and empty. It is no wonder that the spark has grown dim. Rather feels like a vicous circle.... we forget, we move away from God's path and suddenly we find ourselves like Nicolaitans. Those who do not put God first. hmp. I have forgotten to keep my eyes on the Lord and not on myself.

It feels like there is this constant struggle inside my heart..... to stay on the path of God or to let it slide and things wouldn't be an issue. HA! Guess what. I feel more miserable than during the constant struggle!! Oxymoron or just a dork? Here's the inspirational part..... I have felt absolutely beside myself and miserable for 2 days. Figured out I need to revisit Rev. chpt 2......... God works in such amazing ways: the sidebar comments in my Devotional Bible "Good things take time before they are good.... Develop an attitude of trust, God can change situations, His name is Deliverer... One of the most often repeated commands in the Bible is to "wait on the Lord". Waiting on him "grows you up", it keeps your eyes off yourself and on Him; it gives you staying power...."

Is it going to be a good day? Yes it is!

Why I am grumpy

I have figured out what is making me so unhappy = having to deal with everyday medical/surgical patients. I know this sounds very.....contrite? egotistical? too big for my britches? Maybe all or not. I know I get severely depressed by the situation. To the point where I hate my job, I hate going to work and I don't even like being here. Period. It is extremely depressing to do nothing but wipe people's bottoms and pass meds. Sounds like a rather simple day doesn't it? Yuk. Egads, I can't even stand myself when I get in this blue-funk. Then I start to wonder about my qualifications as an ICU nurse and are people really giving me patient (has nothing to do with the fact that we only have 2 burn patients in the unit) assignments because they lack faith in my ability...can I beat myself up in any other direction??? Then I start the spiral about my weight and being single and if only, if only and so forth and ....... what an icky day off. And its only 0830. Nope, coffee didn't help. I don't want chocolate (that might be at the root of the problem ;) I need to do something..........

MEN!!!!

If you've read any of my previous babble on the old web site, you'll know that I agree with Wheezer (Steel Magnolias) "Men are evil creatures, they will ruin your life." Keep in mind that Wheezer is the one who winds up happily dating an old high school friend and lives (presumeably) happy-ever-after. To add to this diatribe, I don't agree with the "Men are from Mars & Women are from Venus". Good grief! Any hard working women KNOWS that most men may be aggressive - at least when it comes to possession of the remote control and that they will get angry about it, but passion of self-assertedness?? Please! I am having a very hard time meeting men that not only are forth-rght, but can channel all that "raw-energy" into being adventurous. And not to just shoot daggers at men, most women (of course I am not talking about myself and I am mentioning it just so the men don't get agressively angry!) are confusing love and money in their simplistic interpretation of Venus. Girls, I don't think the reference to "artistic inclinations" had anything to do with revamping your wardrobe everytime a fashion designer sneezes. Personally, I will stick to Jupiter, the planet of plenty..... plenty of attitude, hope, patience, tolerance and expansiveness. The sense of humor, good will and mercy. Of course, my down side would be blind opptimism as I continue to hope that there are truely good men of an adventurous nature still on this planet!! later mater!

I apologize for being away from this for so long..... The change in worlds took more wind out of my sails than I anticipated. But Never Fear!!! (shall I wear the red super hero cape or the 1940's navy blue cape today??---> life is full of important decisions!).

Hopefully, I will have the 2007 Adventure Page up and running again! Yes, it is meant to tempt you into expanding your horizons! For the time being check out the pictures of the area we plan to hike for a few days.....enter now into Poolewe------>

More to follow..........but for now, Ciamar a tha sibh?